God Takes Care of Himself

acandide @ 2007-02-14T19:03:00

2007-02-15T01:03:54Z

hey, i started a new livejournal...
add me!

anorex_ia

thanks.

get it?

2006-03-02T03:48:50Z

without optimisim.

acandide @ 2005-01-16T22:35:00

2005-01-17T04:35:52Z

yeah yeah i gots a new picture up. i dyed my hair red. its no longer black. i wish i were kate winslet.

acandide @ 2004-11-24T18:27:00

2004-11-25T00:28:06Z

i had a dream last night where jean said to me

"when you are most numb to the world, you will see the most truth"

acandide @ 2004-11-04T14:54:00

2004-11-04T20:55:17Z

hope everyone had a very happy halloween. it is the best time of the year!!!!

friday night brian and i went to a party with some kids i work with. it was so fun... until we got into the car of death.

saturday night was good, went to see conrad and hung out with chris and meagan. brian met up with me and then on to chris' house to eat some pizza and fall asleep. well i fell asleep, meagan and brian did not. haha sorry meagan.

sunday night went to texas, saw tons of people and was so so fun until we left and brian got punched in the face. it was so lame.

glad this long long party weekend is over. i dont really party that much anymore and this weekend i drank more than i have the last two months combined. shit shit shit. im home sick today and my feet are cold. that is all.

the phone is tapped.

2004-11-04T04:56:45Z

MY 10 layers...
Body: L A Y E R O N E
-- Name: Bryttni Marie Boring Shoot Me O'Meara
-- Birthday: on the 28th day of June in every year only when it moves still.
-- Birthplace: Boize Idaho
-- Current Location: Chicagogo Illinois Brook of Boling
-- Eye Color: grey
-- Hair Color: black/blue
-- Height: 5'4
-- Righty Or Lefty: write

L A Y E R T W O

-- Your Heritage: basque
-- The Shoes You Wore Today: reebok
-- Your Weakness: oooh
-- Your Fears: snake. thats scary shit MAN
-- Your Perfect Pizza: banana peppers and mushrooms
-- Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: oh shit yeah

L A Y E R T H R E E

-- Your Most Overused Phrase: "what?" (im fucking deaf)
-- Your Thoughts First Waking Up: "i hate my life" its true, i say it every morning when i wake up
-- Your Best Physical Feature: people say my hair, and if it werent for my hair they wouldnt talk to me. others say my eyes, but these people are just trying to get in my pants.
-- Your Bedtime: when the moon sets and the sun rises
-- Your Most Missed memory: Idaho and Texas

L A Y E R F O U R

-- Pepsi Or Coke: Pepsi
-- McDonald's Or Burger King: fuck that shit
-- Single Or Group Dates: as long as i dont have to talk to anyone im fine
-- Lipton Ice tea Or Nestea: mmhmmm sweet tea
-- Chocolate Or Vanilla: oreo cookie
-- Cappuccino Or Coffee: coffee

L A Y E R F I V E

Do You...
-- Sing: sure
-- Take A Shower: need to in like 5 minutes
-- Do You Think You've Been In Love: yes
-- Want To Go To College: yes.
-- Liked High School: yeah, it was so fun
-- Want To Get Married: sure maybe no
-- Believe In Yourself: sure
-- Get Motion Sickness: only when my mom drives
-- Think You're Attractive: sure
-- Think You're A Health Freak: in some way no, but mostly yes
-- Get Along With Your parents/grandparents: yes
-- Like Thunderstorms: yes
-- Play An Instrument: jug

L A Y E R S I X:

In The Past Month...

-- Drank Alcohol: too much
-- Smoked: too much
-- Done A Drug: yes
-- Gone On A Date: yes
-- Gone To The Mall: i fought the mall and the mall won
-- Eaten An Entire Box Of Chips Ahoy: no
-- Eaten Sushi: no
-- Been On Stage: yes
-- Been Dumped: once. but it doesnt count if it doesnt last, right?
-- Gone Skinny Dipping: mmm i should
-- Stolen Anything: no... okay well i stole this bird but it was green and really cute and it said "take me with you freddy, take me!"

L A Y E R S E V E N:

Ever...

-- Been Trashed Or Extremely Intoxicated: yes
-- Been Called A Tease: yes
-- Gotten Beaten Up: yes
-- Shoplifted: yes
(im so effin hardcore!)

L A Y E R E I G H T

-- How Do You Want To Die: in a field of poppies and tulips
-- What Do You Want To Be When You Grow Up: art teacher
-- What Country Would You Most Like To Visit: spain

L A Y E R N I N E:

In a girl/guy

-- Best Eye Color: brown/green
-- Best Hair Color: black with a white streak in the front. like a mad scientist
-- Short Or Long Hair: longer
-- Height: taller
-- Best Weight: exist
-- Best article of clothing: hair

L A Y E R T E N

-- Number Of Drugs Taken: over 10
-- Number Of People I Could Trust With My Life: 4
-- Number Of CDs That I Own: 3
-- Number Of Piercings: over 10
-- Number Of Tattoos: over 10
-- Number Of Things In My Past That I Regret: under 10. one thing in fact. i ate a tomato once. it sucked

acandide @ 2004-10-21T19:32:00

2004-10-22T01:02:18Z

full name – bryttni boring
. date of birth – on the sunny morning of the 28th day of june in 1984 at 8:13 am

. age - do the math, ass
. sex - dumb breed
. height - the doctor told me that i dont breath enough for my height. i do if i were 5 inches shorter.
. location – IL chicago bolingbrook shoot me
. hair colour - black like the night
. eye colour – gray like a heart attack

. sexual preference – straight as a crooked arrow that has been hammered straight and shot through your stupid fucking little black heart.
. what do you think of cheerleading – it is as much of a sport as dance dance revolution. which is a sport, mind you..
. what brand of deodorant do you use - toms of maine. its natural like hippies
. of the people you've kissed, who was the worst kisser – matt lavelle. couldnt stand it
. do you like pickles - on peanut butter sandwiches
. do you watch porn – this one time i came home and i turned on my tv and there was porn on. and i was like oh man i have to change the channel but while i do that the last thing that was being watched stays in the upper right hand corner and well i didnt mean to watch.
. do you have any pets – i want a puppy. i have a master plan.

. do you have your own phone line – i share one with my family. thats enough for me. i prefer walkie talkies, or soup cans tied to a string.
. your thoughts on abortion – pro-choice

. what do you want to do with your life – exist. but only for a moment
. ever been butt naked bangin' on the bathroom floor – everyday
. would you ever get plastic surgery, if so, on what – no
. biggest redneck you know – fuck jeff foxworthy.

. do you think foreign accents are sexy – idaho. hot.
. do you like hot dogs – tofu dogs!
. last time you went to the doctor – today! fuck you!
. ever taken ballet – no, but i went to the nutcracker every year. same thing really.
. last time you used the restroom – a few hours ago.
. most attractive person you know? - oh man.
. piercings = 11
. tattoos = 3
. shoe size = 7
. favorite colour = green
. describe yourself in four words = i want to die
. siblings = brother and stacy
. coffee cup = i have many cups of coffee.
last....
. cd you listened to = elliott smith, songs:ohio
. person you called = molly. shit lady.
. person that has called you = brian
. person you emailed = hmmm.
. person who emailed you = junk
. person you kissed = nairb

. you have a bf or gf = sure do
. you have a crush on someone = sure do.
. you wish you could live somewhere else = i would like to stay right here for the moment, but icecream would be nice
. others find you attractive = sure
. you like roller coasters = sure
. you write in cursive or print = everytime i pick up a pen it turns into a heart or a flower. never words
. long distance relationships = fuck you
. using someone = fuck you.
. suicide = to be honest, it scares the shit out if me.
. killing people = i will kill you
. doing drugs = oh man.
. premarital sex = oh man.

. like the taste of blood = i dont even know sometimes
. believe in love = i love.
. believe in soul mates = im too romantic for that bullshit
. believe in love at first sight = i dont put restrictions on what love is, and what i can/cannot love.
. believe in God = no
. ever cried over a girl = yeah...
. ever lied to someone = no
. ever been arrested = not hot enough
. ever dated anyone who's in your lj friends list = yeah
. kissed anyone on your lj friends list = yeah
. ever been in a fist fight = twice

what:
. are you scared of = ferris wheels, snakes
. is the most romantic season = fall, winter, spring, summer. think about it. fall is so nice and the perfect weather for walks in the evening. and the most beautiful sunsets. winter, the snow falls and there is nothing like snow falling on someones nose and hair and holding hands and looking through the gray. and then spring, the flowers bloom, everything is new, love is new, people are happy and excited and warm and love is warm and then summer just sleeping in late and waking up to someone and making love all night and all day and that sweat. oh man its so hot.
. what are you like in relationships = dont ask me, im not even there half the time.
.
number...
. of times I have been in love? = in love. once. never again. i have love now, and thats all i need. i never need to feel helpless. in love sucks.
. of times I have had my heart broken? = once, quick fix though.
. of hearts I have broken? = a million
. of continents I have lived on? = one
. of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends? four

::What's the best gift you've ever received?: poppies
::If you had to give up either music or sex for the rest of your life, which would you pick?: thats just fucked up man
::What's your favorite bad-for-you food?: pizza!
::What rockstar would you be a permanent groupie for, no questions asked?: issac brock
::Are you a dog person or a cat person?: both. i miss jasper. <3
::What's your favorite US city?: chicago and phoenix
::Have you ever made out with more than one person in the same 24 hour period?: maybe... (insert shifty eyes here)
::Favorite curse word?:: fuck. shit.
::Favorite euphemism for sex?: bang pie
::Have you ever had a romantic/sexual encounter with a rock star?:: hmm. could have. turned him down.
::What's the craziest/stupidest thing you've ever done while drunk?:: my friends call me "that girl"
::What current trend do you think is ridiculous and wish would go away immediately?: myspace

HAVE YOU EVER...
[Said "I love you" and meant it?] yes
[Been to New York?] fuck new york
[Been to Florida?] fuck florida
[California?] many times
[Hawaii?] passed through it
[Mexico?] no
[China? Japan?] these are seperate places, mind you. and no.
[Canada?] hells yeah
[Danced nekkid?] yep.

EITHER OR...
[Apples or bananas?] bananas with peanut butter, apples if someone would cut them for me.
[Red or blue?] red
[Backstreet Boys or N Sync?] N Sync. no contest.
[WalMart or Target?] if you go to either, steal anything you need. dont contribute to that kind of shit.
[Santa or Rudolph?] hold me, im scared
[Math or English?] English
[High school or college?] im too cool for school

Future...
[do you want to get married] dont know
[if so, what age would you like to be married] today
[who will you marry] zombies

acandide @ 2004-10-21T16:12:00

2004-10-21T21:13:39Z

shit man oh shit. i called in sick to work today because... im sick. i have walking pneumonia. i was having trouble breathing and pumpkin brains made me go. guh i hate him so much right now.

are you dead or are you sleepin?

so i was supposed to go see david sedaris on halloween with brian, but his stupid ex is a stupid bitch and took the tickets back. she doesnt even know who he is and gave brian the tickets in july for his birthday. i mean, can she do that? he even offered to give her money for them. what a ho what a ho. so what am i to do on halloween? molly said that she wants it to end up just like last year when we came home alone with adrian and smoked a bowl. y e a h. hopefully this time molly wont lose her u-pass and i wont have to go back to find my sweater again. and we will be able to find a party where they give us a bottle of wine. each. yeah. that would be nice.

hey alex... going to omaha? come through chicago? we miss you! i hope you are doing well and i hope your hair smells nice.

well my feet are cold and my bed is warm. bye bye bye.

let the good times roll

2004-10-11T04:59:47Z

so brian and i are very happy. we went out to lunch and ate breakfast on my break today. at the airport, we watched planes take off and land. it was great. french toast and hashbrowns. mmhmmm.

brian may be moving to NY in february. brandon... how did you do it? how did you want to stay with me when you knew i was leaving? it just makes me so sad. it was a million times harder for you because you just stayed there and i was off on a new adventure. i get it, really i do. take it back now. brandon, thank you for staying with me and making my last days in texas so wonderful. i love you and miss you. <3

having said that... what the fuck do i do? hmm well. i have a new opposite sex best friend. kevin. he is so funny, the funniest kid in the world. i heart him. we drink like the cows wont go away. thats an expression, right?

friday night was crazy. i got some "homies", you know the little plastic things. they were all lined up on this window sill sitting next to a little plastic nativity scene. i stole that too. its so funny. got supa drunk, and havent been for a long time so it was nice. i ran into a lot of friends... blake, kirk, garrett, dee, ryan s., matt lavelle... haha oh man it was funny to see him. we went to this party on the north side, got trashed, smoked pot ate some shrooms. dont worry mom, im a liar. went to cara's house and fell asleep with my new best friend kevin, came home the next day and slept more and hung out with brian. he told me stories as i fell asleep. worked nine hours today and i am so happy i love my job, makes life easy. came home took a nap made some tofu noodley stuff with peanut sauce and now i am just waiting for the lovely brian to get here so we can go to his house and i can take a shower in the gray room.

thursday night, deathcab... anyone going? i will be there fo shure.

much love ladies and gents. miss ya.

PS... that thirsty guy sure looks thirsty.

halloween is just weeks away.

2004-10-08T19:09:45Z

oh man its been a while. its been a long time, baby.

i keep having these dreams, only when i wake up i forget. haha no no what i mean is that i have these dreams, they wake me up in the middle of the night and i am really upset and then i fall asleep and i cant remember. i feel emotionally drained when i wake up again, as if i have been crying all night. the good thing is i will wake up and pumpkin brains will rock me back to sleep.

i want to eat your pumpkin brains.

i will read you a story every night as you fall asleep. i promise.
my nose is stuffy, my ear is stuffy. i need to be unstuffed and a back massage. that would be so so so nice. come ride this wave.

on the first, i moved here one year ago. yeah yeah yeah. i miss you all my texas friends. i love you all. <3 <3 <3

weak end update

2004-09-30T05:37:25Z

Last Cigarette: in the parking lot when you left my work. it was the best cigarette ever. because it was the last. that i have had today. im drooling.
no im not really. i dont smoke. i only pretend to inhale because i want you to think that i am cool. this cough... yeah its fake too.

Last Alcoholic Drink: i drank some beer and i lined them up on the dashboard.

Last Car Ride: i prefer trains.

Last Kiss: SICK.

Last Good Cry: what makes a cry good? only when it is mixed with drool for optimum wetness.

Last Movie Watched: i dont watch movies. i sleep.

Last Beverage Drank : wader.

Last Food Consumed: Double motherfucking Cheeseburger.

Last Phone Call: moooooooooolly.

Last TV Show Watched: degrassi.

Last Time Showered: in my front yard i have this curtain set up on a round that hangs from the sky and the faucet comes down and its almost like iceman is right there with me.

Last Song Played: i dont play songs i just crush a lot

Last Item Bought: jonathan strange

Last Download: so crazy right now so crazy right now so crazy right now

Last Annoyance: i said some word with a "ness" on the end. it really bothered me.

Last Thing Written:
ShuHornLou: i want to die
ZolaOnAOL: Please get help at once.
ShuHornLou: why?
ZolaOnAOL: I want you to be okay! If this is an emergency, please call the National Suicide Hotline at 1-800-SUICIDE (1-800-784-2433).

Last Word: cough cough WHOOP WHOOP

Last IM: mutchkins

Last Time Amused: this is not a game mister.

Last Time Wanting To Die: zola wants me to die

Last Time Hugged: i dont do shit, man.

Last Chair Sat In: for this question i will have to consult my magic eight ball. one cannot just answer such things at random.

Last Webpage Visited: www.whattodoifyouaregluedtoyourbestfriendsboyfriendspenisandshewalksinonyou.cosmopolitan.com

WHERE DO YOU LIVE?:
*Chicago and the surrounding areas.

-SEX OR ICE-CREAM?:
* sexy creamed ice

-WHAT COLOR UNDERWEAR ARE YOU WEARING RIGHT NOW?:
*carmel apple

-WHAT ARE YOU DOING RIGHT NOW?:
*talking to chris, bridget, tabitha and eating my hair

-WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU WENT OUT TO EAT WITH:
* roy... or was it the other one? i dont know, the one that got mauled by his cat.

-IF U WERE A TOY, WHAT WOULD YOU BE?
* easy bake oven

WHERE WOULD YOU WANT TO GO ON YOUR HONEYMOON?:
* my big back yard

-WHATS YOUR RING TONE?:
* it sounds like a man that says "cells phones are stupid" yes... even more stupid than what i just said. yeah.

-WHAT DO YOU THINK A TOBLERONE IS:
* its a candybar that is triangular shaped with bits of toffee in chocolate. thought i didnt know, but i do. sucker.

-HAIR?:
* nothing like uncle jesse's thats for sure.

-WHAT R U WEARING RIGHT NOW?:
* pants

DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?:
* jodie foster's best role. for sure. (damn... whats with the bad jokes, bryttni?)

-WHAT WAS THE BEST ADVICE EVER GIVEN TO YOU?:
* anyone that wears all the same color cannot be trusted.

-DO U OWN A VEHICLE?:
* no

-WHAT ARE YOUR FUTURE PLANS?
* nah

-FAVE FILM:
* Patch Adams. mos def.

YES! I can get off the phone now! (thanks to rob)

i think it starts with a "DR" or a "G"... but they look the same... so i dont really know

-LAST FILM YOU SAW AT CINEMA?
* the last movie i saw: shaun of the dead.

-FAVE DAY OF THE YEAR?:
* october 31st.

-DO YOU LIKE TO DANCE?:
* only when everyone is looking

-ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK ANYONE OUT:
* yes.

-DO YOU SLEEP NAKED?:
* only when everyone is looking

-CHRISTMAS OR EASTER?:
* shit

-LUST OR LOVE?:
* bah humbug

-KISSES OR HUGS?:
* i prefer sour patch kids. really. i would take that over the promise of a long happy lifetime anyday. just for a single red sourpatchkid. mmmm

-WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD?:
* not being able to hear out of one ear. some call me lucky, but i view the whole situation as "half deaf" rather than "half hearing-able"

-WORST SOUND?:
* phone

-WHATS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP?:
* how much longer i can sleep in

-ROLLER COASTER, SCARY OR EXCITING?:
* its full of love

-HOW MANY TIMES DO YOU LET THE PHONE RING BEFORE YOU ANSWER IT?:
* .45 (please note there is a decimal point in front)

-ZODIAC SIGN:
* cancer

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NO GIRLS, 4GUYS TO FILL OUT ON GURLZ
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fuck gender gaps
-THONG OR KNICKERS:
*knickers

-LONG OR SHORT HAIR:
*hair

-TALL or SHORT:
*short

-BREASTS OR BUM:
*fall over forward or backward.

-BRAINS OR BEAUTY:
*if you are lucky, they have both. or if you are me, you would have both.

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NO BOYS, 4GIRLS 2FILL OUT ON GUYS
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-BOXERS OR BRIEFS:
whatever
-DARK OR FAIR:
whatever
-TALL OR SHORT:
tall
-SIX PACK OR NICE ASS:
arms are sex. hair is sex.
-SIZE MATTER:
i really dont like big feet. when marykate and ashley had big feet and big heads they looked like bobblehead dolls.
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(4BOTH GURLZ N GUYZ 2FILL IN)
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-MOST IMPORTANT PHYSICAL FEATURE:
* hair.

-MILK-WHITE OR CHOCOLATE:
* shit is sick

-DAY OR NIGHT?:
*dusk

-SUMMER OR WINTER?:
*fall and spring

-CAKE OR PIE?:
* sick

-DIAMONDS OR PEARLS?:
* pearls

-SUNRISE OR SUNSET?
*i would have to say i prefer sunrise over sunset. thats for sure.

-HAVE YOU EVER BROKEN A BONE?:
* i heart you pumpkin brains

-DO YOU HATE ANYONE?:
* dead people cant be hated. because they arent real, see. i used to hate this man but that didnt last long.

-DO YOU BELIEVE IN FIGHTING?:
* GOSH! it exists as much as you and i do. with that information, you decide.

-WHO DO YOU TURN TO FOR ADVICE?
* molllllllllllly

-YOU COULD HAVE 1 SKILL IN LIFE WHAT WOULD IT BE?:
* i have mad skillz

-WHERE IS YOUR FAVORITE PLACE TO SHOP:
* everytime i go someplace its closed.

(thats should be an emo song lyric.)

i want to die

2004-09-22T06:16:39Z

im incredibly happy, so dont worry about me.

im just fucking sick as hell and i want to die.
my mom is really mad at me for not going to the doctor sooner. i hate hospitals. i spent way too much of my time there when i was growing up, its the last place i want to be now.

i want to breath again.

a little fickle

2004-09-13T06:34:37Z

so maybe i am. okay i am. but this ones a keeper.

saw garden state on friday and came home to meet up with brian, cut bridget's hair and played fact or crap. i won because i had the most fun. brian stayed over and then went to work the next day. went to the ashbary to help out with a fundraiser and got auctioned off in the date auction. 8dollars. woohoo. it was the highest bid at the time.(im a hot item) then people started to feel a little more comfortable bidding and we made a lot of money. it was great. we then went to sunny and chads house for a party but left early because rob and brian were not having fun. it was great though, i got to spend a lot of time with brian again, and he ended up falling asleep here. he left tonight to go to work. i just wanted to stay in bed all day.

things are really wonderful in my life right now. my job is great. i really like it and i dont have to work at that other stupid job anymore. mmhmm. my family and i are getting along wonderfully. we are doing a football pool right now and i am tied for the lead with my dad and brother-in-law. haha everyone is so pissed because i dont even pay attention to football. hmm, well i have just been super super happy this past month, and brian is coming at a good time. we get along great and he is the funniest person on the planet. we spend hours together without being annoyed. its really awesome. oh man.

yeah so things are really lovely right now. i hope everyone is grand.

happy labor day

2004-09-07T09:03:39Z

brian came over the day before yesterday at 11pm and did not leave until 2am today. it was great. we didnt do a thing. well,actually we rented shaolin soccer, and drank jim beam with coke. read two bed time stories, and two morning time stories. morning is now 6pm, by the way. we then went back to good ol blockbuster to rent "new york minute" IT SUCKS. i mean i didnt even like it, and that says a lot. i love the olsen twins, but come on ladies!?!?!?!?! i made breakfast, we sat around, enjoyed our days off. it was a really good end to a really shitty weekend. tomorrow i have to go back to work, ugh. i start borders on wednesday, and i am really looking forward to that. oh i got a really nice card for labor day from brian too. im glad this weekend turned out like it did. and i am glad brian stayed for so long. anyone else, i would have probably killed. i have to sleep. i am still sick. i dont know how i will do it without a bedtime story. dang.

bulletins are messages that are sent to all your friends at the same time

2004-09-05T09:08:15Z

it has been so long since i have written a decent entry. well well what is new little lady?

i got a job at borders and can start whenever i feel like it. woohoo. im awesome.
i cant sleep. unless its day.
all my friends are bitches and punked out on me all weekend. and i called work off to hang out with them. fuck em.
i hate my current job. at panera. they are so nice... but i hate working there. its gross. i hate feeling sticky when i get off work.
i talked to melanie recently. she is good. she lives less than 2 hours away and i still cant see her. i miss her a lot.
i want to go to idaho so badly. im homesick
i have a new crush. haha. surprise surprise.
i still have to answer stupid questions like "are you still with marc?" we never were. oh man.
im really sick. i cant breathe.
i didnt do a god damn thing this weekend.
i miss living in the city, especially since all my friends are back because school started.
this weekend sucked all together.
im getting along with my mom. but we fight about once a month... it hasnt happened yet. i hope it doesnt.
i guess im boring. that is all.

oh fuck

2004-09-03T04:25:08Z

B- bass
R- red
Y- yarn
T- teeth
T- tooth
N- Nigerian
i- immigrant.
im so poetic.

2) Have you ever had a song written about you? yes yes... what about chicago. plan for landing
3)What song makes you cry? only in dreams- weezerrrrrr
4)What song makes you happy? float on - modest mouse
5) What do you like to listen to before bed? dont
6)Name a song by Coal Chamber: cant
7) Who was/were your idols when you were younger? julia roberts in pretty woman. i wanted to be a successful hooker.
8) First album you ever bought? the vandals-live fast
9) Name a song that reminds you of someone and why: i just put iTunes on random and the first song that came up is existentialism on prom night and it reminds me of MARC because its our new car song
a p p e a r a n c e
HEIGHT: 5'4"
HAIR COLOR: blueblack
SKIN COLOR: light light
PIERCINGS: ears
TATTOOS: three
r i g h t n o w
WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING? blue jeans
WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO?: every breath is a bomb- blood brothers
WHAT TASTE IS IN YOUR MOUTH?: toothpaste
WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE?: havent been outside all day but i think it was hot
HOW ARE YOU?: mmhmm good
d o y o u
GET MOTION SICKNESS?: at times. like now
HAVE A BAD HABIT?: you may say they are bad, but i like being bad. yeah.
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS?: at times
LIKE TO DRIVE?: yes yes
f a v o r i t e s
TV SHOW: boy meets world, full house, 90210, charmed, degrassi, daily show, space ghost, home movies, aqua teen. not in that order
CONDITIONER: it works
BOOK: ishmael and cunt
MAGAZINE: dont really em
NON-ALCOHOLIC DRINK: water mr pibb
ALCOHOLIC DRINK: belini... damn carinos. mmm. and a flaming dr pepper
THING TO DO ON THE WEEKEND: skip school
BAND OR GROUP or SINGER or RAPPER: modest mouse
h a v e y o u
BROKEN THE LAW: breakin the law everyday
RAN AWAY FROM HOME: i was 6
SNUCK OUT OF THE HOUSE: sort of
EVER GONE SKINNY DIPPING: yeah sure
MADE A PRANK PHONE CALL: haha yeah. im the best at em.
EVER TIPPED OVER A PORTA POTTY: watched people do it. and then watched them get so excited about it. its not that cool. you wouldnt even get in trouble.
USED YOUR PARENTS' CREDIT CARD BEFORE: yeah, but i was allowed.
SKIPPED SCHOOL BEFORE: all the time in college. once in highschool
FELL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH: every morning in highschool
BEEN IN A SCHOOL PLAY: yes
BOYFRIEND: single
GIRLFRIEND: MOLLY <3
SEXUALITY: straight
CHILDREN: none.
CuRRENT CRUSH: more like an interest. ha
BEEN IN LOVE?: yes
HAD A HARD TIME GETTING OVER SOMEONE: haha Noooooooooooooooo
BEEN HURT?: yeah sure.
YOUR GREATEST REGRET: eating a tomato
GONE OUT WITH A SOMEONE YOU ONLY KNEW FOR THREE DAYS: sort of.
r a n d o m
DO YOU HAVE A JOB: yes
YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW: i use the MP3s GOSH.
IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?: grey
WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?: i am happy. thats all
WHO MAKES YOU THE HAPPIEST?: riding my bike in the middle of the night
WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET?: dont buy shit
WHO DO YOU CONSIDER GOOD FRIENDS?: molly, marc. they are my best.
WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO?: whatever. im easy like that.
w h e n / w h a t w a s t h e l a s t
TIME YOU CRIED?: a few days ago.
YOU GOT A REAL LETTER?: probably my birthday
YOU GOT E-MAIL: today
TV PROGRAM YOU WATCHED: watching a movie called "bully"
MOVIE YOU SAW AT THE THEATER: napoleon dynamite
y o u r (what?)
TEENAGE SMOKING: haha i buy my friends cigarettes at times. cause they are 17. oh man
SPICE GIRLS: made me famous
DREAMS: mine are pretty intense.

neon green and ready to clean

2004-08-22T23:03:11Z

i got a new toothbrush.
woohoo.

cant you feel it rolling off your lips?

2004-08-20T05:13:21Z

ErikJensen208: But you should be happy because you are my favorite person ever!!!
wherePOPPIESglow: aw thanks kid
wherePOPPIESglow: i miss you a lot
wherePOPPIESglow: i want to see you all the time
ErikJensen208: yeah I was thinking about you when I was at work
wherePOPPIESglow: aw
wherePOPPIESglow: why for?
ErikJensen208: Well I just remembering when I lived in horseshoe bend and you and april came up to see me on my lunch break
ErikJensen208: I think you guys skipped school
wherePOPPIESglow: haha yeah
wherePOPPIESglow: but we had permission
ErikJensen208: haha
wherePOPPIESglow: that was fun
ErikJensen208: yeah and I remember thinking how much fun I have when you are around
wherePOPPIESglow: aw
wherePOPPIESglow: im not fun anymore
ErikJensen208: I am pretty self concious but when I am around you I feel good
wherePOPPIESglow: aw
wherePOPPIESglow: erik move here with me and marry me and we dont have to talk to anyone ever it will just be you and me and we can have visitors like molly and cliff but thats it... just you and me from now on
ErikJensen208: That is what I keep hoping will happen
wherePOPPIESglow: well when will it happen?
ErikJensen208: when I graduate
ErikJensen208: would that be ok?
wherePOPPIESglow: two years? yeah for sure
ErikJensen208: I want to be able to make enough money to buy us a house
wherePOPPIESglow: aww... i dont need a house
wherePOPPIESglow: but all i want to do is paint. and take pictures. thats it. i want to be poor. and happy.
ErikJensen208: I will let you pick it out
wherePOPPIESglow: aw
wherePOPPIESglow: erik. i love you so much.
ErikJensen208: I love you too
wherePOPPIESglow: <3
ErikJensen208: you can teach me how to paint
ErikJensen208: and how not to eat meat

stringin him along.

2004-08-20T04:13:39Z

i really hate everyone a whole whole bunch right now. I am going out of town this weekend and when I come back I am not hanging out with anyone. for real. peace out.

just leave

2004-08-16T01:31:51Z

if it seems as though i have dropped off the edge of the earth... i probably have. i havent had time for anyone but me lately. i cant say that its a bad thing. i have really needed it.

i have been getting WAY too trashed lately. oh shit. im trying to forget.

hooked up with gedi. yeah. im awesome. oh man. im so awesome.

subject: optional

2004-08-11T08:22:39Z

i thought i had passion. its now all gone. i dont really give a fuck anymore. SCREW IT ALL.

for real this time.

take me where the whispering breezes can take me up and spin me around

2004-07-31T03:38:41Z

wherepoppiesglow: we will be in an all too shitty of a mood to really do anything anyway

why do we do this when we are in shitty moods. sit there and not do anything? its lame...

acandide @ 2004-07-29T16:06:00

2004-07-29T21:29:54Z

I stole this from my friend mario's journal. just something that i wanted to do too. <3 much love kid.

so here are some words that represent feelings, and these are my feelings on these words...
LOVE- i am frustrated by this because i dont know why people hide love so much. people have a fear of over using this word when in reality they have a fear of what comes with love. pain, happiness... they fear both. to me, love isnt a feeling, its everywhere. what you get from love, how you take it in and give it away is where the feelings come in. like fear, happiness, anger ect. with every breath i have love, with every glance, every hug, every exchange with the world i have love. love is wonderful, its everywhere and people are so afraid of the best thing in the world.
FEAR- fear... i associate fear with two things. snakes and ferris wheels. people may laugh but they are real phobias. i cant even look at either without feelings of nausea. i dont fear much else. everything else i jump into. sometimes too fast.
WORRY- fuck, i worry all the time. this world sucks. right now, i have nothing to worry about... but i still worry all the time, the what ifs and what not.
SADNESS- i think that sadness if also an emotion that is often avoided. i know that i bottle up all of my sadness and then it will pour out when i step on an ant. i find feeling sad really draining and i would rather act happy than feel sad.
ANGER- i have anger towards... ignorant people. i dont really get angry. hmm.
DISCOURAGEMENT- i feel like i have so much to give in my life. to give to myself, to have a life that i want, but i feel discouraged when i dont do what i can everyday to change things. to make my life better. i feel like i am tied down with certain responsibilities and guilt to change anything right now.
HURT- it happens. it happens a lot. it only makes you weak, until it makes you stronger.
JEALOUSY- is useless.
SHAME- no shame no regrets.
HAPPINESS- happiness pours from me like my love.
GUILT- wish i could do something more productive in my life.
CONFUSION- i dont really get confused by people. i can read people pretty well. if i happen to really like someone, i find them hard to read. for a day or two. i figure people out pretty easily.
FRUSTRATION- only people frustrate me. i wish they would open their hearts and eyes more to the world around them. i feel so bad for all the shelter they have grown up under. its sad.
LONELINESS- i feel lonely because molly is not around. i feel lonely because people dont see me for my worth. its lonely when you have so much to give and people dont care.
EMBARRASSMENT- doesnt really happen to me.
HATE- i hate this feeling all together. i hate that people hate. it makes me physically ill.

oh jeeeeeeeeeeeeeeesus!

oh jesus!

2004-07-27T07:07:00Z

lady B ryttni: oh man
lady B ryttni: so yesterday i was at this coffee house
lady B ryttni: and i ran into this cupboard door
lady B ryttni: turned around and ran into the fan
lady B ryttni: and then tried to turn around from that and ran into a door
lady B ryttni: and this whole table of girls were watching me
lady B ryttni: so i ran
Gumybear7682: thats awesome
Gumybear7682: sounds like a bryttni moment

why do i do these things? oh yeah. i like to.

2004-07-27T07:04:29Z

*The \\*
Last Cigarette:	recently... i want to die.
Last Alcoholic Drink:	when molly left. so like 3 weeks ago?
Last Car Ride:	today with my cousin chloe in the back of the jeep. my grandma held my hand the whole way
Last Kiss:	i think it was the night molly left.
Last Good Cry:	two days ago
Last Library Book:	fight club, in highschool. also checked out at the same time was girl, interrupted
Last book bought:	last book bought for me was my ishmael
Last Book Read:	reading glamorama, americana, and my ishmael
Last Movie Seen in Theatres:	spiderman too. haha. i loved it
Last Movie Rented:	i dont rent movies. molly had netflix. my sister rented barbershop 2 and i watched that tonight. i fell in love too. green eyes do it for me. aw.
Last Cuss Word Uttered:	fuck? i dont know. i havent really said anything for a while.
Last Beverage Drank:	water, and a pepsi
Last Food Consumed:	pizza
Last Crush:	ryan
Last Phone Call:	marc
Last TV Show Watched:	daria
Last Time Showered:	6:30pm monday july 26 2004
Last Shoes Worn:	my flip flops. chloe has some hightop cons green and i have some pink ones so tomorrow i am going to wear one of each and so is she. haha
Last CD Played:	dont know, listening to straylight run right now. pretty pretty
Last Item Bought:	dogtags ... my mom got them for me.
Last Download:	straylight run
Last Annoyance:	bugs... marc
Last Disappointment:	going to the mall today
Last Soda Drank:	pepsi
Last Thing Written:	"of course they will... jesus"
Last Key Used:	space bar? lame question
Last Words Spoken:	"i love you"
Last Sleep:	last night at monica's house
Last Ice Cream Eaten:	mint chocolate chip... thanks rami!
Last Chair Sat In:	this one asshole
Last Webpage Visited:	livejournal.com
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